Advice?! Starving/Binging Need Buddy For Support.

So, I started starving myself since Janurary 6.. Haven't binged once until Janurary 31st I binged and the next day I found out I gained 2 pounds which means I got from 126 to 128.. I was 140 from the beginning. Feburary 1st I was gonna start an apple diet to get rid of that stubborn 18 pounds left.. But I ate a little bit (I wouldn't say binge because I didn't stuff my face and I ended up not gaining after that) I weighed myself today Feburary 2nd.. It said I'm 128.2 so I didn't gain thankfully. But then I binged.. I was suppose to start the apple diet today (one apple only and tons of water) I usually run outside after eating but because of the weather I decided to just lower my intake instead of having to burn 200 calories. So I'm so scared to weigh myself tomorrow because I think I gained like 3 pounds or so... I'm probably 130 now.. Which makes me wanna cry because I was so happy I was finally in the 120's. now I have to start all over. I need a starving buddy to give me advice. My sisters wedding is soon and I want to weigh 110.. Then I will stop, but I need advice from someone with personal experience how I can stay 110 and manage maintaining that weight? I can't be like this my whole life.. That's impossible.. Anyone please help? Ill help as much as I can, we can give eachother advice and be there for eachother. Thank you for reading. Ill be waiting for responses. We can text just message me your number or post it below. Love you all<3