Do My Teenage Years Count?I still find myself thinking a lot about J.L. (initials), who I really had it for my freshman year of high school. He was a senior, and he was in art class with me... I later found out he liked me, even though I did everything I could think of to keep him from thinking I liked him. I was an alcoholic, socially outcast, pill-headed, bulimic goth girl, and he was one of the star ba
Also, another guy... A much older man I met and instantly fell for when I was 17, my uncle's friend... I see him often, and since he paid me a lot of attention a while ago, and a few crumbs since (I think it would be more if we were like, alone with each other again...) I've been busting my butt, doubling my workout time at the gym, being really careful about beauty rituals, and just generally trying to make myself as pretty as possible for him. He is almost 30 years older than me (but has a full head of hair, young face, and fit body), and FYI, I do realize I am being extremely pathetic, but I'm sure I'll pull out of the funk. Please don't judge.