Saying Goodbye

I've been trying to get over or past my ex-girlfriend.  It has been most difficult.  We have tried to be friends, but I don't think that is gonna work.  I always feel like crying when it is time for her to go.  I hate that.  I don't want to cry in front of her.  And I hate feeling like crap when I talk to her or see her.  I don't like how I feel about myself when I am around her.  That has been very difficult to admit to myself.  I know that I still miss her, and there is a weird part of myself that wants to be with her, and wants her to love me.  I hate that.   She will never love me like she used to.  And that hurts too.  But over all the reason inside of me has told me to get the hell over her and move on.  She is not good for me.  I now have another girlfriend, and I enjoy her company and she makes me laugh.  My ex always has a way to make me cry.  MMMMMmmmmm.  I think I'm gonna stick with the new one, and let my ex go.  No matter how difficult it seems to be.

starprincess starprincess
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 23, 2009

I know how you feel. Unfortunately I still haven't convinced myself it's over or worse yet to move on. And life goes on, but sometimes i dont want it to.