A Month Ago We Broke Up.
I love her still have feelings for her yet she wont even talk to me. I never lied to her and pissed her off by **** talking her when she dumped me. She wanted me back and I showed her the forum where I talked about it. Sure we were only together for two months but she is my first love who I lost my cherry to. So its really hard getting over it. We both are military shes Army and I am Air Force. She left me for another dude and almost had sex with him but only got hickies. I treated her like crap on the way out to reconcile with her and knew she'd just do that again to me. We tried making up but I kept interrogating her about this guy. She didnt like it and kicked me out because I was depressed. Threatened to call the MPs on me if I ever came back too. I never threatened her at all either so yeah it sucks. I dunno why I still care for this person and have feelings for her. I wrote her a letter of apology and an email and she just wants to be left alone... My mind says forget her yet my heart is crazy and dumb! I want to move on and find someone else who wont dump me for working 12 hours for two weeks in a row and find "someone" better. I just dont know why my feelings are so true for this one. Atleast I am no longer depressed or crying. However this thanksgiving was depressing because she was supposed to be around for it. Its been tough but atleast I am SLOWLY getting better and its no longer consuming my life!