Still In Love With My Ex

I fell in love with my ex the first time I saw him.  When we married I was the happiest person alive.  We were married for 10 years after dating 4 years.  He left me 24 years ago. Out of nowhere he told me he didn't love me anymore and it was over.  Nothing has ever been so painful.  I would have done anything not to lose him.  I never remarried.  I saw him again after 10 years at our son's wedding.  It still hurt so much.  I only said hello when the family was seated and he said how are you.  That was it for the entire wedding.  I've never stopped loving him and I suppose never will.  I'm 51 years old and alone.  I don't talk about this to anyone because I know they will think I'm ridiculous.  I wish I could just talk to him one more time.  I would like nothing more than to fall in love again and have opened my heart to it over the years.  At my age I feel this is it.