Love Is Not Enough

I married the man of my dreams but now live in a nightmare. I won't say that life was always perfect but my life was happy once upon a time. I am approaching my 5 year anniversary and in that time because of my husband's drug use and lies I am here. We lost a home car and motorcycle because he took money out of our bank account and our pmts were behind then I was laid off. I borrowed $ from my mom which he spent on pain pills. My credit is ruined and we live in a hotel. I don't know from day to day what is going to happen but I don't think I can take much more. I love my husband without question. I also value having some sense of security and I do not have that. Recently things had seemed better. He came clean and told me about a bad check from an old bank account so to help him stay out of jail I gave him the $ to pay it. When I called to get a paid recipient I found out it was not paid. I don't know the truth from lies and I love him but I am so close to saying enough. Do I just give up? I promised to God and my husband for better or worse but I don't know what else to do. I have a new bank account no checks because I'm afraid he will steal them and we have no car because of a wreck. I feel stuck and need prayers. Thank you.
ubiquitous4288 ubiquitous4288
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 1, 2012

I see that it was while ago that you posted this. I will pray for you. You are not alone. There are many who are suffering like you. Please check out Nar-anon, a 12-step group, in your area and go to a meeting. You will find more prayers and help and friends there who have suffered like you are and have found answers. Please, please remember to focus on YOU. It's okay and not selfish: it's survival. Take care and be safe.