Mandy67

For the past 60 years I have wanted to be female;when my parents were out I would regularly crossdress. As I grew older the desire never left me. At 21yo I saw a phsycatrist, he suggested shock therapy which did not appeal to me as he explained it would make me not desire female clothing. I have been married twice; each time I shared my desire to crossdress, pre-marriage all was ok, but afterwards it either revolted them, or was used against me! I am approaching the end of my days; everybody thinks I am a lovely person (as a male!) but I feel very lonely and am no longer young and  desireable. Having trouble finding  a reason to live............sounds pathetic, but thats the way I feel! Anybody similar? I hope not as it is all rather sad. Love mandy