Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

i dont know whats wrong with me. for months and months i have been soooo tired. i'm sure its just stress and my anxiety but some days i could just cry i'm so tired. i told my phsychiatrist about it, and he wrote up something for me to get blood work done. i told him i'd rather not know if there was something wrong with me. well he told me what i already know and that is that my logic is foolish. if theres something wrong, then i need to get it looked into so my life can get better. it's the same reason i havent gotten a mammogram yet... i don';t want to know.  pretty stupid logic, i know but at the same time i just want to be left alone. i don';t want more medication, i don't want invasive procedures. i just want to live my life, whatever life that might be.  the test i;m most worried about is the glucose fasting test. i had gestational diabetes with both my kids, so i know i have a higher risk of getting it. i would rather die than be a diabetic.  that funny, as i was writing that sentence i almost stopped, cuz it really is a warped thought. (sigh). oh well hopefully its just stress and the fact that i sleep very poorly.  couple days i'll find out..
prettyinpink prettyinpink
46-50, F
Jun 2, 2007