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So Many Questions..

I am definitely loving this site.Finally, I would be able to pour my feelings which I have been concealing for so many weeks now.

I met Andrew online, in one of those BBW dating sites. For a Filipina, being overweight is definitely not helping my dating chances with a fellow Filipino that's why I entertained the idea of having foreigner boyfriend. He's an Australian, soon to be divorcee. He messaged me and after few exchanges of emails and chats, he told me he's going to the Philippines. I told him we could meet, if we would get along well, then I was ready to fall in love.

He came here 2 days after Christmas and stayed until New Year. It was a memorable week, full of love and romance. I was simply swept off my feet.

Then he went back to Australia. For a month, he was so keen on the relationship, always calling and texting me. Then it started to slip. His calls and texts became very infrequent. So since I love him, I tried to do my part to save the relationship. I would also call him and most of the time, he would tell me it's because he's busy at work. I tried to understand his situation.

Our last conversation was when I called him to greet him for his birthday.. He told me that he loves me and I should wait for him. I am willing to do that.

Then, I faced a slight financial setback. I was so desperate then, and I got no one to turn to. So I texted him and told him about the problem. He never responded. Some devil maybe playing with me that time, I lost my phone after few days.

Unfortunately, I have never written down his number. So the only contact info I got left of himm is his email address and yahoo id. I used those means to contact him. But up to now, I have'nt received any response from him.

So now, I living in a limbo. I still have so many things to tell him. I still love him. I still want to be with him. He's a very upfront person and I only want to know if he really does not want me anymore, and I would let him go.

I wish I'll have my answers soon..

kpopconvert kpopconvert 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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I am girl speaking here and only interested in men. I don't agree with homosexuality and bisexual, so please do not talk to me about it. I met this great guy online. We were talking every day. One day, I didn't trust him and I do not trust any man, except the men in my family. I have guys looks at women and tell me about it. One day I was like I don't know if he cheating or not because he has not contacted me in two days. I messaged all of his friends on his Facebook. I didn't know he had a child because he was not ready to tell me that, but I got pictures of his child on his shoulder a year ago on Christmas, but I ignore it. Then I found his exgirlfriend's mom on Facebook and she came after me saying they were married, but it was not true. She blocked me. She was a crazy lady. Then her brother was saying they live together, but he confessed and said they do not live together, but he made me mad. The exgirlfriend's brother's fiance attacked me saying he was worthless, druggy and then she confessed she did not know him at all. They lived together for seven years, but her family told me that they never met him, so what is that about. She would run off with his child and go see her family, but he did not know about it. He told me right away that he lived with her seven years. I helped him with the break up. He was taking to long, so I was fooling around with other guys because I wanted the pain to go away because I didn't think he loved anymore. I lived with a guy, that hit me in the stomach with his children around, he hit me in the arms twice, he corned me in closets to threaten me, he was always cheating on me and my abusive exboyfriend has a restraining order him and I did it to him too. I always had night mares of my abusive exboyfriend putting his hands on my throat and mouth to hush up and he really did that to me. The boyfriend I have now was calling my grandma to see where I was at. He messaged me to see if I was ok. My abusive exboyfriend knew I didn't love him of course not because he beat me. My boyfriend now lightened up my world by sending me sweet things. I flew to see him and everything was perfect. I truly know he cares about me because he still wants me after I was with my abusive exboyfriend. He missed voice, so he was listening to my voice messages. I just really love him. He told me he loves me first. I am glad I dated other guys to get that experience out of the way, but he was not ready to be with me because he was trying to get over his exgirlfriend at the time. I am so happy he said I helped him get over his exgirlfriend. I will give you more details later on.

I met this guy on Zoosk because I wanted to meet some guy, so bad. I met guys on there before. Everytime, I met a guy on there, they were who said they were, but I was never attracted to them, so it would hurt their feelings, when I turned them away. I met guys on there and I didn't like them because they were to needy and showed their muscles all the time and I don't like it. I would travel to see these guys and they would do anything to do me, but I wouldn't let them Do that because I knew they were not good guys. They had sexy ladies on their wall and I don't approve of it. One guy had a sexy Angel on their back half fire and half Heaven, so I don't like that all. I don't prove a **** at all. I had an exboyfriend into ****, so I hate it. Then I was searching on Zoosk met another guy online. We knew each other three years, but getting intimate with him ruined it all. Then I met the guy I am talking to right now. He lives twenty four hours away from me. We started talking this year on Thanksgiving time. I was so thankful to hear his voice again. We talked about his ex girlfriend wanting money from his mom, but I didn't know he had a child with her because he didn't tell me because he didn't want to loose me and I said I don't want a man that has children because the drama and that is judgmental. We talked about his whole past. I told him my whole past too. We both have done drugs in the past. We both have drank in the past. He is seven years older than me. I don't want to tell you his whole life story. I have been with about five guys that were selling drugs or doing drugs and plus they were drinking and they were trouble makers too. The other three guys liked to drink. When I met the out of the state guy he was drinking and he was really embarrassed about it. He accepted me being in a resource room. I got teased all my life for my learning disability. People would make fun of the way I looked and talked, but this out of state is crazy for me. I did send him naughty pictures and he did the same, but we were dating for a long time. We feel in love way before we started getting sexual with each other, so thankful I didn't blow it. He is everything that I want and I am every thing he wants too. He says nice things about me. The exgirlfriend's mom said they were married and I talked to Herr, but she never answered me, but they had a child together. The brother lied to me. The brother said I hope he treats you better than he treated my sister. He told me right away that he lived with her for seven years, so I didn't believe them. She ran off yo be with her family and I think she met other guys too. When he found put I was with Buddy Harris then he was chasing me. He called my grandma to reach me. He sent me sweet messages, but I got deleted controlling Buddy too. He told me I miss your voice, so I listen to your voice messages because I miss you. He is a sweet guy. I was not ready to settle down with him because it was to fast, so I dated other guys, but they were cheaters and liars, but that is what I get. I was with an abusive man and he talked me through it. I helped him get over his ex girlfriend because I just listened to him and gave him advice like he did for me. He wants to be more than friends. We use to read bible verses over the phone and that turned me on. He wanted to learn all about my faith in God and that turned me on too. He turns me on because I know he would be a good father because he has a son. He tells me sweet things everyday. I went to visit him, but we didn't have much time together. I think I am done here. Leave comments for me

oh darling.. i know it's hard.. but i really hope u will hang in there..and i wish you all the best..:)