A Part of Me Is Probably Gay.

Since I was 9 or 10, I was fascinated by penises. I used to enjoy watching the other boys undress in the changing rooms and later on in high school, I liked to check out the boys in the showers.

I like women and I don't really think I would want a boyfriend, but I am a regular on gay sites and have met several guys to explore my gay side, and especially love to suck on a penis.

I like to look at naked pics of guys and gay videos, but I am not sure I could say I was gay or even bisexual. Ideally I would like to know a guy who felt same and could share my love of penises.

mab1971 mab1971
36-40, M
40 Responses Feb 16, 2009

Yes I would love to try this! mmanelli@suddenlink.net

Yes I would love to try this!

I think you are feeling the same thing a lot of us feel on here.

Yes iknow what you mean. I have not sucked a man's or young guys penis yet but damn its hard to find somone who is willing to do it with me.. If you could help that would be great. C.m in my mouth soon

I love women but some time when i musterbate i like to kiss and eat a big penis.Once i was sleeping with my uncle in his room,he is a bit crazy,he told me you are looking like a girl as i was in teen age that time.I dont know what happend to me but i wished to see his deck.I tuernd off the light and straight went to his bed.He said what are you doing.I told him you are married and let me train how to do sexual activities with a girl.After this i went down to hold his **** i searched down but it was not there.i Moved my hand up and a big rock was lying on his tummy.Oh,that time he was aroused completely.This was my first approach to a ****.Qucikly i naked my self and got on his ****.he hold my hands and pull me down and i cried.I quiackly got off and put on my trouser.Ny uncle said it not possible now to leave you without anl.I was beging and said i will musterbate for you but leave me.I run away that day to my room.
After seceral months again is started thinking about his big penis as my one is musch smaller than him.One day again i slept in his room and came on me.That day he told me if it is paining then you enter in yourseld slowely.I did it and when he started moving i came on down.Any how we did it several time and one day his wife saw us.Next day she said come and sleep with me.I tried but could no reach to her as there were other people.I am now married and far away from mu uncle and aunt but still some time i like to see his big ,curved shaped penis.

I love sucking ****, but like to keep it separate from sex with my wife. There is something extra exciting about the scent and taste of ****, and the feel of it in your mouth, not to mention the delicious taste of ***.

I'm exactly the same, I consider myself 100% straight but find myself ************ to gay **** most nights and dreaming of stroking and sucking a hard ****.

That's a good question, I'm not sure what the answer is, it's sometimes hard to be honest with yourself. My fantasy life is certainly completely dominated by guys with hard *****.

I'm going to have to try it for real soon :)

The more I think about taking a guy in my mouth the more I find it difficult to find someone to go with. I've never managed to make it happen. I am not gay and don't want to hang out in gay bars 'cruising', it's just not what I'm looking for. Any ideas on whats the best way to go because the want to do it is becoming stronger?

is more common than many realize had my 1st experience at 19 I too love women, but want to try it all, want to just meet some guy and go the full distance to feel and fully know if gay sex is as well as I've heard

I feel you man it's like if u just described me !!!

Im 39 now and think about sucking a **** every time I ********** and am too big a chicken to follow through:-( Sometimes I feel like there is something in life here that I could be missing out on.

I wish I wasn't so chicken. I'm in the same boat.

i fell the same way i love sucking ***** i all so like women i am maried but like to find a man to suck and spend some time with

I fill the same mib1971 I love guys and rally want to suck a **** but I just can't find a guy who will let me suck his **** bit I like girls at the some time I am not gay not bi I do t no can I have you ****

I absolutely love women but sucking and wanking a nice hard **** is amazing to!

I seem to be getting gayer every day. Yes, I love women, but I've started to go back to cruising guys like I did when I was younger. Mostly sucking and not swallowing, but now I want to swallow and I don't need reciprocation. I'm also trying to work up to getting ****** safely. My *** is pretty tight but I've been working it on my own. bit so I'll be ready for the right guy. I'm also much more submissive for both men and women than I used to be. I loved to be bossed around and abused a bit and forced to *****, lick, suck, whatever.

How old are you xx u sound my man to go with xx

I'm 45, still pretty fit. I'd love to.

I find the biggest problem for me is the labels we use, I love women completely, they are amazing, but there is some thing about sucking another guy off thats so exciting. So I use the term bisexual to mean for me that I love women and like **** not men.

<p>Bet u get so see a lot more **** than most gay guys 'cause guys think you're completely straight 'cause you're into women more, how does bicurious sound to you?</p>

Originally, I just thought I would like to only suck a ****, but after reading many stories and comments on here, I am slowly changing my mind. Now, ideally would be to see a nice hard one and watch it's owner ********** for a few minutes to determine what kind of pressure and speed he likes best. Then, I would **** him in a similar way, experiencing the feel of his wondrous meat. Soon, if he is enjoying it so far, I would ask if I could now suck him. Hopefully he would allow it and I would finally get my reward.

have at it. you'll at least know. I love it

well I would have to say you are Bi. I am not judging you, just saying. But then again I really don't take much stock in labels. just be yourself and enjoy life.

I to would like to feel a C*** in my mouth , to suck, lick, and taste the ***.

I think you are all just sexual. I am a gay man who had a lot of ***** (vagina) before I came out and started sleeping with men regularly. I still want more ***** (vagina) sometimes. But i'm as queer as a three dollar bill, yet manly as the next!

I have never had the pleasure of swallowing another man, but my gf & I would love to try.

I know what you mean, when I was younger I explored my gay side a bit and have sucked and been sucked by a male and it was great I would definately do it again, I watch gay **** but only with straight boys being paid to do gay things for some reason it really gets me off. I would do it again but I consider myself straight because I would never have a relationship with a lad

A man's **** and *** canbest be serviced by another man. Sorry ladies. I have been married for over 30 years. If you are with an uncreative partner, you will suffer from the anxiety and it will affect your sex life as well as likely affect the relationship. Rather thant reclassifying myself as bi, I consider finding another man or men who are willing and able to be among my closed group of friends, the best way to relive sexual stress and allow me to return to life in a satisfied and sane manner. I am less edgey and not as short with my wife as I am when I am just online for arousal to jack off to. A man knows what feelsgoos, what turns me on and how to give me total satisfaction. A man tends to be more adventurous and understands why you are in need.<br />
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Who knows maybe your relationship with him becomes more, or maybe you just agree to jack off and penetrate one anothe for satisfaction. If you want someone to top you. Make sure you know who you are dealing with and what you are getting into. If you do not go in catious. You could could ruin a lot more than your health.

Yeah, like some of the above, I guess I am bi. For a long time I thought I was a closet homo as they were called back then among less appealing names. I knew a gay guy in high school but none of us knew he was really gay. He used to like me to drive him to a distant gay bar because he didn't have his car or license yet, and I would. He told me he was researching for a school assignment. I kind of had my doubts, but as an author wannabe at the time, the idea of this kind of research appealed to me (but I think it was really because the gay sex ideas appealed to me). <br />
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See, years before when I was about eight yo a young girl who was a friend had once asked me to play with her and to 'try to be a girl' and had dressed me up like a girl and put lipstick and a wig on me and was teaching me how to move like she did and all, and I regretted when our playtime ended and I had to take the girly stuff off. I think we tried to play that way again but some of my boy friends came over and made fun of me in the wig and makeup and outfit and I was in a mixture of of embarrassment that was filled with a turned on excitement. I didn't really understand about sex very well back then, but I knew it really was exciting for my girl friend to dress me up as a girl and treat me like her girl friend who was also a girl, and how stimulating it was (even though I didn't get a hard-on yet) for me to found out by my boy friends, how I blushed when when one of them asked me to kiss him and laughed, and how it stimulated me even more in later times when he would wink at me and smile big and tell me how cute I had looked as a girl. <br />
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And then, a few years later in high school, a good friend of mine and I were joking around and he made a comment about sucking my **** if I would suck his, and I laughed and agreed to do it. Before I left a little later, he reminded me of what we had said and told me he would expect me to sneak out of my house late that night and come to his window and suck him off and he would suck me. I remember the excitement I felt and how my **** got hard, even though we were both dating girls at the time.<br />
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And as promised, I was at his window a few hours later, and he came outside and sucked me off, and then I sucked him off. He spat out my ***, and I did the same with his, but I secretly loved the taste. These meetings continued a couple of times a month for three or four years, even after I got married. As we got older and more on our own, the meetings were often in my home or in his, until he got married and didn't want to do it anymore.<br />
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But I still did. And I took my chances sometimes to find other guys who wanted me to suck their *****. I no longer cared about or even really wanted anyone to suck me. I just wanted to suck a hard **** and at last, I tasted the wonderful *** without embarrassment of my friend's eyes and swallowed it, licking the ***** clean and sometimes kissing the guys.<br />
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I like sucking ****, and when I was more limber and younger would even at times suck my own, developing my taste for ***.<br />
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Am I gay? I still enjoy women, but I enjoy men, and deep down sometimes, I just want to be submissive and be a woman. More and more as I get older. I like to dress as a woman, too.<br />
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And really, I want a guy to buy me a woman's warddrobe, maybe look into getting a sex change, and be his gal.<br />
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But sometimes I like having the equipment to put inside a woman and get her off, although I really enjoy using my tongue and mouth on women more....

if you wanna suck a **** your gay

Bull.

And BTW, it's "you're" not your.

I too wonder what it would be like to suck a nice hard ****. Maybe have mine sucked too.<br />
The nearest I've ever been to such a happening was when I've indulged in mutual wanking with a mate . More years ago than I care to remember tho'.<br />
My summers are fast running out but I still hope.

I think alot guys feel this way,just not all are brave enough to admit it,whats wrong with good sex? nothing

I have secretly wanted to suck a **** for a long time but have not tired it. I really am not attracted to men at all, very rarely do I see a guy that makes me think of sucking his ****, rarely. I watched some gay **** it does absolutely nothing for me. It's kind of strange, I just love to look at a great looking hard **** and really do want to suck one and feel it throbbing in my mouth and tasting his *** as he unloads in my mouth. I just cant get past the rest of it.

I was like this, until, I just gave in and sucked some ****------ that was 24yrs ago and I am still sucking and letting them *** in my mouth!!!!

Hey..if yuh want i could succ your ****...i feel exactly the same way i am sixteen but i love older...juss give me a time and place nd you will be happy yuhh did

the only hard **** I have seen is mine and the ones in ****...I want to see one in real life ,up close, I want to see it touch it feel it kiss it lick it an suck it ,but i have never been in that position to have it...I want it so bad..

I am the same way. i just want to suck a **** no matter the size.

Whenever I see a guy with a hard **** I always want to play with it, and if it meets my standards and my mood sometimes I will suck it.

I sucked a **** a few times. it no big deal. i remember one time really liking it and then another few times not being turned on. i like looking at erect penis it turns me on somewhat. but then who doesn't love ****? lol i also really like girls so i guess i'm bi.

Don't do what I can, I thought I would like to suck a **** for 35 years, I got my chance and was I sorry that I waited all those years. If you think you want to try to give a guy a blow-job, go for it. You may not like it, but then again. you may just love it like me.

I've recently become attracted to men's penises. Shaven does nothing for me, it's got to be hairy & untrimmed, the way I prefer women. I watch ****, and prefer the "classics" of the 70's - i.e unshaven. The pubic hair adds to the beauty of the genitals, it's only in recent years that the trend of shaven started (and I don't agree with the "health issues" of unshaven).<br />
The sight of a man giving a women so much pleasure, made me wonder if I was "missing out on something". The potential of a man co-creating a new life from his *****, turns me on. Seeing another man's sexual lust now turns me on - str8, bi & gay, and so does his "potential vunerability" in his ******'s affect on his body - sometimes wanting to fall asleep.....<br />
For me, this is no longer labelled as "gay" - its appreciation and enjoyment of male sex/sexuality, viewing, and experiencing with another man, and predominately, continue to enjoy love & sex with a woman (with her knowledge of my feelings). It's ironic, that in mankind's distant past, men could enjoy the pleasures of both sexes, without any society "labels", over recent many centuries it was "forbidden" for man to have sex with another man, and now, there's a potential for us exploring our "true" sexuality - and not "giving a damn" about labels" and feeling comfortable in how we define our OWN sexuality identity. No longer being told by society that there's a "simple" black & white devide between heterosexuality, homosexuality, - bisexuality is gradually becoming more of an "option" available to us...

When I was yonger an older boy whipped out his penis and asked me to suck it. He told me to suck on it like a lolly pop. Every since then I feel in love with sucking penises. My fatasy is to have a musclur hung male force me to satify him and he would grab the back of my head and use force to make me deep throat him. I used to play with one of my friends penis we would say we were paracticing and I would suck it as much as possible.

That's my fantasy exactly!

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I have a really wonderfull gf, but, like you, I so much want to suck a ****. I have looked at a lot of gay **** and I know I want to try it. And, yes, I have felt this way since I was very young. In fact, my very best friend growing up is gay...I always wanted to suck his ****.

I have a really wonderfull gf, but, like you, I so much want to suck a ****. I have looked at a lot of gay **** and I know I want to try it. And, yes, I have felt this way since I was very young. In fact, my very best friend growing up is gay...I always wanted to suck his ****.