I Fantasize About Smoot Musclar Hung Males Everyday,

Well ever since I was younger as a boy, I saw a boy who was more endowed then I was.  It turned me on.  Later on as I grew up, I saw men at showering at the YMCA, I always knew it was wrong to look, but their balls and ***** were huge.  When I became was in Junior High, I saw gay **** on the **** station, I couldn't really see the picture well, but it was a well endowed body builder dancing and swinging his long fat ****.  This really turned me on.  Then when I grew older, I saw more **** magazines, that had guys with bigger ***** then my own, this has always turned me on.  I saw a straight **** one day with a girl sucking this 11 inch ****, this turned me on, and then I used to sneak to **** video arcades to look at gay ****.  Now that I have a computer, I look at gay **** whenever I can.  I love looking at girls too, but I see that my biggest fantasy is to suck a male who has a thicker and longer **** then my own, I fantasize about males who have huge fat, hung ***** and balls bigger then my own.  I get so turned on when a man is smooth and has a muscular smooth bubble butt.  I don't want to be gay, or bi.  I will never tell anybody.  I don't like looking at men in public, just in secret.  I fantasize about this everyday even in my head.  I am always too afraid to sneak in do it because of Aids, because I know that I would want to do everything else if given the chance, I wouldn't want to use protection, but I would never want a disease.  Also I know that my faith condems it.  Why do I have these thoughts.  Why do I crave, and fantasize about muscular smooth males having sex.  Why does this turn me on?  What must I do?????

mailmale81 mailmale81
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10 Responses Mar 7, 2009

Mailmale81

That hard smooth body in your picture makes me rock hard. I would love to feel your soft **** grow and get hard in my mouth. I suck you off and take your man seed all the way down my throat. Hot, Steamy Salty cream filling

you must forget it.

just do it

I had the same feelings growing up. Although I did play around with a guy when I was young, it wasnt till in my 20's that I finally had sex with another guy, It was great.

cactus my experiences are very similar if I compare to yours, the only thing is when I was a boy around 13 and olderr boy sucked me several times until I shoot my wad in his mouth for the first time late when I was in the Navy I had one or two experiences, one with Jack my closest friend, we sucked each other for years and after I left the navy nothing until today I am so scare of getting a sickness. I want to be your body tho... Greenviking

Mailmale, I'm a straight female, but I feel so bad for you! Religious beliefs tie people down.. I'm in a rough spot myself. I don't know if my desires are just things I'm supposed to push away, like my beliefs say, or if everything is all a load of crap because there are so many things in my "religion" that are lost in translation.. i don't know how I feel about faith anymore. It's just so hard though, because of religious conditioning.. I think about things I feel like I shouldn't, and I want to do them more than anything in the world, but I can't. <br />
As far as your feelings on this go, good for you!! The human body is a wonderful, amazing creation. I stare at other chicks all the time.. as an artist, I love the shapes and the beautiful imperfections people have.<br />
Maybe the reasons some people, like you, want sex with the same gender is because you have a willingness to empathize/switch roles with the opposite sex... I guess a sub/dom sort of thing. My bf's straight too, but sometimes we REALLY want to switch roles and feel like we're someone else.<br />
Oh, and yeah, the penis is awesome. I said it. Lol. I never understood why my girl friends said it was an ugly thing. <br />
It's not a thing you should go parading about proclaiming to the world, I think, [discretion=good!] but I don't think you should be ashamed of how you feel. At least you don't have a poop fetish or something like that. In my opinion, you just have maybe an inner desire/fantasy of being the submissive kind of person, and it's also common that the female body's sex appeal is overused and bland, whereas real passion and real fire comes from seeing a man's body react to his desires. I agree with DK.

Well mailmale I will try to shed some light on some things for you. I'm married and have been for 46 years. I love my wife and she is a good woman. She would never think of cheating or having sex with another woman or man. She is just a good down home gal. We have sex here and there and it's good. We just don't have enough. I sucked my first **** when I was in the 2nd or 3rd grade. It was my cousins peter and we spent the night together and he thought it would be cool to remove our pajamas, so we did. A few minutes later he was playing with me and I liked that so I played with him. A few minutes later we were sucking each others peters. We did that a few times and then he moved away. It was kids stuff. I played with a few other cousins here and there including girls and boys and enjoyed it very much. There was always an excitement there. I was junior high age when I was jacking off one day at home and this creamy stuff came out of my ****. Scared the crap out of me. I had an older friend that I went to that I could trust, and asked him what just happened. He laughed and explained it all to me. Then told me if I was to **** a girl now that I have *** I could get her pregnant. That was the end of sex for me for quite a while. Yes there are rubbers but like you I like the feel of natural skin. So I took matters into my own hands until I joined the Navy. Yes I saw other boys in the showers and looked at their ***** and balls and usually they were bigger but for some reason it didn't bother me. In the Navy I saw guys dicks a lot and wondered what it would be like to play with one but just let it go. I was hitch hiking from Calif to Az one time on leave and got picked up by a guy, that talked me into playin with his **** while we were driving down the road. Then he had me undo my pants and he started to play with me. He took off on a dirt road and got to a spot where we ended up sucking each others ****. It was pretty good and I was really excited. We did it three times before I got to Az. Since then I've had a few instances when I sucked **** and had mine sucked. I really like it but I really prefer *****. I haven't sucked a **** in quite a few years again because like you I'm scared to death of disease. Would I suck **** again, you bet. With the right guy. Its really neat and I miss it and I really like the taste of ***. It would be nice to get with some one like you that has never done it, because if you go nice and slow and gentle,and play, I t can be great. But I don't have a big swingin ****. I'm only 7-71/2 and cut. You are lookin for big. I just wrote an experience in 2 parts last nite in my profile called sex in the wild mmmff part 1 and part 2. Read if you'd like it deals with this very thing. Good luck in finding a safe big swingin **** to suck on. I think you need it and will like it . I have some pictures in my profile of myself but we have to become friends in the circle to do this. I'm always looking for friends. I love people

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I have never been able to openly confess that I thoroughly enjoy kissing, sucking and sniffing other men's penises -- no doubt because of my religious and social conditioning. Racial and ethnic identity matter not to me -- Caucasian, African, East Indian penises, etc. are all equally tantalizing. I especially love the scent and taste of unwashed penis, and have even swallowed ***** on several occasions -- it was just so irresistible. I don't know if I have the strength of character to admit to those closest to me that I am a "**** lover", owing to the fact that I hail from Trinidad & Tobago in the English-speaking Caribbean. This is, regrettably, a nation wherein the dominant societal attitude is still one of antipathy towards homosexuals, lesbians and bi-sexuals, all of whom are regularly demeaned as "sexual deviants". Yet many who condemn all such "sexual impropriety" have no compunctions about lusting after other people's spouses. Ironic, isn't it? To say nothing of flagrantly hypocritical!