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I Am Stressed Out And Feeling Lost

Help Me?..

By: ManicDepressiveKid
Written on February 11th, 2013
Well, let me start off by saying that my name is Hunter and I am 16 years old. Let me go into my past really quick.. When I was 2 years old, I had cancer and they had to take my kidney out. When I was about 4 or 5 years old, my dad left me and my mom, never to come back. When i was about 9 years old, my cousin(14 or 15 years old/male) raped me. Yeah, great history..

I can't trust anyone, but at the same time, I HATE to be alone. I am VERY sexually active. I get stressed and angry easily. I get mad at my girlfriend when she wants to hang out with anyone else, even family members, and even when she invites me. I get EXTREMELY jealous, even when she references a guy while she's talking. It makes me feel like someone else is taking her attention. I say mean things before I realize I do. My mind tries to force me to believe that she's cheating on me, when I know she's not. I get stressed out easily. I don't eat much. I don't sleep much because I'm usually either overthinking all night or crying myself to sleep. I often think about suicide and self harm, and my girlfriend keeps trying to blame herself for all this. I see a psychiatrist, but I am shy and haven't told him hardly anything..

The worst part is that no matter how many times I'm told "It'll be okay", I know that it won't.

Help me?
By: ManicDepressiveKid
Age: 16-17 , Male
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  • DailyMomentum
    DailyMomentum

    Hunter, I would say you don't like being left out.....you are going to have to have a talk with yourself......you need to tell yourself.....sometimes its just ok....if your girlfriend has different schedule from you.....Read the book" I'm OK, your Ok".....it helped me when I was a teenager......my parents had difficulty minding the store....there was three of us.....we were latch key children among other things.....I started going for long walks as a kid and found it helped my outlook on things....as a young adult I did the 10 mile walks for cancer......you just have a find a niche that works for you....:)

    Feb 11
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  • TimelessEyes
    TimelessEyes

    Hello, MDKid. I am sorry to hear you went through so much at such an early age. Adolescence is a difficult transitional phase for everyone- insecurities, doubts, fantasies, and hormones all working together to stress you out. Seeing a GP so he can prescribe you some vitamins, and practicing sports can help normalize your sleep and appetite. And since you are seeing a psychiatrist, why not give him a chance to help you ? If you feel shy, you could write small texts on each topic you mentioned in your post and ask him to read them, then you can talk about them. Please don't despair or hurt yourself. This is a site where you can make friends who will give you the support you need right now- just join as many related groups as you can. I wish we could talk, but
    EP mobile won't let me view replies :/

    Feb 11
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