I feel like I have too much pressure put on me sometimes. I find it unfair how I seem to be the only one in my house with any form of responsibility or great burden to keep things running. I also find it unfair how quickly I get in trouble for something no matter how small it is or even if it's not even my fault.

I try to do my best and I try to be good but it never seems to be enough. I'm always exaushted from the emotional damage my mother puts on me, and how my sisters never seem to help it either.

I know I shouldn't complain because a lot of people have it worse but I'm nineteen and I can only take so much of this.

What I want more than anything is to just leave and disappear. I don't even want to go back to school anymore. I just want to be away from here and everything and be alone.

It's not that I want to die or anything I guess, I just want to leave. Leave life and responsibility and my family and people I work with or hang out with and never talk to anyone again and just move to a secluded cabin with a dog or something.

I'm just so sick of my life and the people in it and have been for as long as I can remember.
cindniss cindniss
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 7, 2013

ive been feeling the same way maybe you r a part of that family for a reason and they need u more than u need them

I hate to say this but your not alone..... kinda in the same 17