The Most Stressful Year Of My Life

This year has been without a doubt the most stressful year of my life. It started out with a huge punch to the gut when my boyfriend and I who lived together both got laid off...on the same day! My boyfriend planned to go to school in the fall and change scares me, so I worried about that a lot too. Then we both got new jobs, and he got laid off again 2 months later. I've been battling with financial stress all year long. Then September rolled around and we packed up our stuff, I quit my job and we moved three hours away so he could go to school. I looked and looked for a job, but it's so hard to find jobs lately that I couldn't find one for a month. At the end of that month, he broke up with me...just came out and said "I don't think this is going to work" after 3 years of living together. So once again, I packed up and moved home. Only this time my load was much lighter. I had lived on my own long before we had gotten together. I had my own (really nice) TV, blueray dvd player, microwave, furniture...and I had to sell all of it to him because we consolodated our loans together due to lack of finances. I even had to leave my was so nice. Not to mention I still owed almost $3,000 after all that, so my parents had to take out a line of credit to pay the rest of it back since I was jobless. Now I owe them so much money, plus I still have my bills to car needs to be fixed desperately, it's not even driveable, and I don't have any of my posessions that made me feel like I had my own independent life. I am living with my parents and I had to start my job search all over again. I constantly feel guilty and ashamed for having my parents take on so much of my burdens. I was out of work for over three months which really set me back and I found out my ex became an alcoholic in school, which he hid from me very well. Did I mention I had to drive his *** everywhere for 2 of the 3 years we were together because he got a DUI and had his license revoked? And now it's almost Christmas, I didn't even have the money to buy anyone I love Christmas presents which makes me feel horrible...and to top it all off I just found out my dad has alzheimers. Wow, I really needed to get that all out, it felt really good. Enough of 2009 already...I'm sick of this year!

TwistedVixen TwistedVixen
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 22, 2009

Wow. it sounds like you have had a tough time of it. Trust me when I say that we all go through these times. I have had my share of it. I have had to live with my parents in the past and financial strife tends to follow me. I know it seems dark right now but trust in yourself, it will improve. I'm sure your parents love you dearly and will see you through your hardship. That's the beauty of parents, they love us no matter what. Keep your chin up, this will pass. It's a tough time on the job market these days but it sounds like you are doing everything you can to make it work. Don't be too hard on yourself. Rise to the challenge, give your all and you will come out better than you went in. There is always hope if you look for it. Smile and be beautiful.