Changes...

This is so true, and it's somewhat sad when you think about it. As a child we're so carefree and innocent. As you grow older you experience more, get hurt by those you love, and before you know it you're hesitant to trust and you have to toughen up or be broken. At the same time, we learn so much good from it as well though, so you can't really be bitter. I've always been the type of person who was kind to everyone, even those who hurt me. I would go out of my way to make them happy. When they would hurt me I would let them walk all over me and in the end, I was the one who was somehow always apologizing. However, that's not me anymore. These last 2/3 years have been full of trials for me. I hated learning that I HAD to be tough...I so much wanted to just stay sweet and do anything so that everyone would like me! I've always wanted to know that when I died, there wasn't a single soul who had anything against me. But you know what, I've learned that no matter WHAT you do...now matter how hard to try, someone is always going to have a problem with you. There will always be people out there jumping to conclusions, telling lies, and betraying you. These past 2 months have especially been the final trial for me, and now I can proudly yet sadly say that I have officially began to stand up for myself. That doesn't mean I have to be mean...but there does come a time when you must speak your mind, set things straight, and give up on people. You can't prove your innocence or guilt to anyone unless they want to believe it. You can't control what they think or say. When it all boils down, the only thing that matters is that you know the truth and God knows the truth. So from here on out, I can firmly stand on my own two feet and be happy for myself. If they want to hurt me, that's fine. But I won't be there for it to ever happen again.
cherryxblossom cherryxblossom
26-30, F
1 Response Jul 22, 2010

good for u