I Learned A Lot About MyselfI went thru a rough patch about 8 years ago where my whole world got turned on its head. I found myself living alone for the first time in 16 years with no job, and family and friends (with a few exceptions) who didn't understand my decisions and were unwilling to be there for me emotionally. So it it was up to me and me alone to dig myself out this hole...
Thanks to the thoughtful recommendation of a family member (thanks Mom) I started working out - these visits to the gym became a precious lifeline. I took things one day at a time. I prayed - I haven't been to church in years, but I have always believed in God and I needed to feel that someone was listening. It was a rough few months. The one song I used to play over and over was "Bring Me to Life" by Evanesence. It helped get me focused and back on track when things looked particularly dark.
Looking back now, I realized that things turned around when I made the decision to start doing and stop pitying myself. Things turned around because of the steps I took - I made it happen, no one else. I discovered that I had an inner strength I never knew existed and now I know that no matter what else happens, I have been to the bottom, I've seen how dark it can get, and I've made it back. I'm not afraid.
rsharpe7 41-45, M 3 Responses 3 Jul 27, 2010