I Learned A Lot About Myself

I went thru a rough patch about 8 years ago where my whole world got turned on its head. I found myself living alone for the first time in 16 years with no job, and family and friends (with a few exceptions) who didn't understand my decisions and were unwilling to be there for me emotionally. So it it was up to me and me alone to dig myself out this hole...

Thanks to the thoughtful recommendation of a family member (thanks Mom) I started working out - these visits to the gym became a precious lifeline. I took things one day at a time. I prayed - I haven't been to church in years, but I have always believed in God and I needed to feel that someone was listening. It was a rough few months. The one song I used to play over and over was "Bring Me to Life" by Evanesence. It helped get me focused and back on track when things looked particularly dark.

Looking back now, I realized that things turned around when I made the decision to start doing and stop pitying myself. Things turned around because of the steps I took - I made it happen, no one else. I discovered that I had an inner strength I never knew existed and now I know that no matter what else happens, I have been to the bottom, I've seen how dark it can get, and I've made it back. I'm not afraid.

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3 Responses Jul 27, 2010

you are so right and it takes that time and strength to go forward you can do it more than you ever realize. thanks for sharing.

Jesus is the way of life. I like your inspirational story. How can i help you?

I understand.... and it does feel great when you know that you can endure many obstacles and be able to survive the darkness... I been there 9 years ago and I wondered how I survived but it does feel good to have the confidence to know you can make it...