My Life...Maybe you have to experience the darkness before you can appreciate the light.
My name is Ellie and I'm 19 years old. I have been through a hell of a lot for a 19 year old.
When I was born, my mother was 16 and broke. She had five kids after me, all with different guys. She didn't know who my father was. I don't know who my father was.
I grew up in a rough neighborhood with creepy old rapists and stalkers all over. Playing outside was dangerous because of the crime and abductions that took place.
I started having sex when I was 14 after being forced into it by my 17 year old neighbor. I hadn't even gotten my period yet. I started drinking and doing drugs.
When I was 15 I went to work at a pizza shop and met this older guy, we had sex as well. Then he left town and hooked me up with a much older guy who convinced me to try master/slave relationship, which I did for 2 years. The best part about my master was that he made me quit drinking and doing drugs, and I am eternally grateful for that.
When I was 16, I moved out of my mom's and in with my master. I got pregnant around the same time, but had an abortion, which is my worst regret.
When I was 17, my master had to move and I wanted to stay in town, so we stopped the relationship and I met Brian, my current boyfriend, who is the love of my life. About three months into the relationship I got pregnant and had the baby, but decided to give the baby up for adoption. That was one of the best things I've ever done.
Then last year I got pregnant again, but had the baby at 19 weeks, stillborn. Last year my mother passed away in a car accident, leaving my five younger siblings without a guardian. My boyfriend and I have been trying since then to legally adopt all of them, but we have to get married first.
Now I'm 19, I have a great boyfriend. I've been drug free for 4 years. I've been pregnant three times but I have no children. I work at a recreation center, making next to nothing. I never graduated high school. I still live in a ****** apartment.
I know that someday I'll look back and see that I got somewhere from nowhere, and that I went through more hell than I should've, but I got through it. Good lord, I hope that day is soon.
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