Been There, Done That, & Lived to Tell About It
I'm going to be very non-chalant about some of the things I've been through in my 31 years of life. Alot of people in my life get really surprised that I can just kind of "state" the things I've been through without any apparent emotion behind it. SO, just know that there is emotion inside of me regarding these things, I don't take them lightly, but I've gone through the necessary therapeutic healing and I have become a stronger and more resilient person as a result.
Because these things have happened, there is a part of me that feels blessed; not that I wanted them to happen, but I was given insight that has helped others who have been through the same things and I've actually had the privilege of helping others.
*molested from age 5-11 by a teenage boy and also by a 60 year old man
*violently (repeatedly) raped on my 14th birthday by a male friend.
*physically (and emotionally) abused by my half sister from birth (literally) until I was 15.
*Verbally, psychologically, and sexually abused in a relationship for 8 years (5 were spent married to him)
*2 attempts on my life by my ex husband. One with a shotgun and the other with a knife to my throat.
*Self injurous behavior from age 14 to present
*Binge drinking heavily from age 14-20
*Smoked pot from age 16-18 and consequently went to treatment and then lock up.
*Addiction to pain killers from age 29-31 and went to rehab
*Hospitalized inpatient for severely lacerating my arms with broken glass on purpose at age 15
*Diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder, with depression and anxiety at age 30, spent time in an outpatient program to deal with the PTSD.
*Raped at age 30, after being slipped a date rape drug into a drink at a hotel.
These are the things I can recall off the top of my head. I am a very easy person to talk to and I am here to listen or attempt to give advice or suggestions to anyone who feels the need for it. If you are feeling suicidal, pleasedo not keep it to yourself. Seek help immediately from a professional.