I'm a Fighter. :)

I've gone through a lot of bad things in my past. I was molested when I was 5 by the teacher aid and I was emotionally, physically, and mentally abused my older brother. My brother tried to kill me when I was like 3 because he hated me. I remember some times when he punched me or slapped me because I did something "bad." He would say things like "I wish you were never born. I hate you. You're stupid. Shut up, don't say anything retard." He was a very angry person who scared me so much. When I'd hear his footsteps near the door, I'd run to my room and close the door. That's how scared of him I was.

Because of the way I was treated, I thought I was worthless, stupid, retarded, and damaged. I thought I was meant to be hurt by men my whole life. I thought there was no reason for me to be alive. I thought about killing myself for a long time. I tried it once. My self-esteem was so low for so long. I was depressed for about 5 years and suffered from social anxiety disorder.

But in December 2008, I decided to get a therapist. She helped me over come my social anxiety disorder, how to love and take care of myself. All the work I did made me confident in myself and made me a strong person.

Now, I won't ever, EVER let a man or anyone take my confidence and self-esteem away from me. It's mine. I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be treated with love and respect. My past has taught me a lot. It taught me to appreciate my life, my health, and my friends. It taught me to be a good-hearted, understanding person. A lot of people don't get depressed people, but I do. And someday I will be a great psychologist and help them out. :)

minnie22mouse minnie22mouse
18-21, F
5 Responses Feb 21, 2009

damn girl...

You go girl! Way to go. I don't know you, but still, I'm proud of you!

thank you. :)

*applauds* you go girl..

I was VERY motivated and I was brave. It was my dream to be happy and to be confident. I always knew that one day I would achieve my dream, I just didn't know how. All I needed was my therapist to show me the way. :)