Struggling

Recently I decided to date my best friend. I think she is great and all. It's just that I'm not 100% over my first love. I listen to songs and make me think of her.  Especially the songs we had as a couple. It's so hard to not break down when i want to do is shut everyone down and tell them inside I'm dying and i need to let go. I recently sent my ex a message on Facebook telling her that what we had is special, but I'm going to move on. It was a really long message but i let her know that she was my first and that i would always love her. I'm not sure if i should've told her that but to tell everyone the truth, i feel like that is how its going to be. Because no matter how hard I try to shake her, I can't. There is always something that makes her come up...I feel like If i can't move on, my life is going to end. I'll end up in a institution for crazies..i don't know. 
Brokenhearted33 Brokenhearted33
18-21, F
Jul 27, 2010