Throw The White Flag Up

Ever since I got out of the hell I was in and the drugs, I am having trouble to keep myself together. It seems that my life is never stable, its always something that shakes things up. I am lost and confused. My life is crumbling around me, I dont know where to go next. I just keep getting the feeling that soon I will break for good. I am not used to this life, the life of an average person. Someone that isnt into the drug life, or the fast life. I lived in the fast life since I was 13, I dont know nothing but that life. I dont know how to react to everyday routines that I fallen into. Im not happy. My life is full of twist, turns, dead ends,that I have finally found myself lost in this world. I sometimes feel like my life is a battlefeild and after this last fight that I have lost, I am ready to throw up the white flag and surrender. I am breaking down again.
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
3 Responses May 16, 2012

You need to slow down... It's important to find pleasure in the simple things in life. If you don't you'll always be sad and you'll always be looking for something to get you out of the dumps...

Adjusting to any new routine takes time let alone a whole new life. Be gentle with yourself and slow down. You can decide minute by minute what to do next if you must. Just keep going! You have almost cleared the horizon, soon it will be hard to figure out why life was hard. You have friends we will gladly talk and do whatever we can. you have shown such strength we are proud of you! So take a breath and think about what is important for just the next minute if you must but don't give up, it will be worth it!

Look I know I blew the fck up on you, but you got to look at in my shoes. I do still care and want the best for you. Dont give up, this is just a bump in the road. I know that you can make it thru this. You are strong enough just remember do whats best for you. Dont let you life be at risk for something that may not be.