I Am Trying

There has been so many changes and i am trying to keep it all together. on the surface everyone see's a girl who has it planned out . on the inside im screaming to be let out .that i can just slip and fall and let someone else clean up the mess. All the moving and working more hours then i can count and realizing i have let my dreams go the things i struggled to keep have all up and left. I know everyone goes through their ups and downs but i feel like mine just keep piling up that eventually their going to overtake me. i dont want to give up on my dreams but being keeping up with them has become impossible . I have to work to have the money to go to school so i can have a better future but for now everything is overwhelming . I have went out seeking to feel better but ultimately feel like i have already lost the battle . My recent break up with my fiancee really messed up life because i gave up so much and the split was so hard that even seven months later it is affecting me.