Nightmares...or Memories?

Last night was a freaking, horrible night. In my story that i posted earlier sort of explains why im such a mess. Anyways, i was in the basement last night when it happened...After i was dumped, i threw my IPod across the room. When it landed all you heard was a loud thud. In my head all i could think about was, im losing it, im losing it, im losing it....I couldnt stay together. My mind was racing, my palms were sweaty, and i couldnt stop the tears that were flowing down my cheeks. I just lost HIM. The one i loved, the one i shared my first kiss with, the one who kept me warm when i was cold.

....The one who helped me through the late nights when nobody else was there.

HE left me, he abandoned me, i felt disowned. I felt broken, useless, and worthless. I felt like the whole world was against me. So right then and there i went upstairs in the kitchen to grab a knife and towel. I layed the towels out and just layed there. My parents were shopping, and my brothers were sleeping. I could do this...right? I was wrong. All i could do was cradle the knife and sob on the floor.
After 20 minutes of that i finally got up to put the stuff away and hide in my bedroom. Since last night i havent eaten one single thing...
am i crazy?...

Aliahxx Aliahxx
13-15, F
Dec 3, 2012