Advice PlsHallo recently i was employed as a home carer going to people's houses to care in their own homes. I thought my fears of going out would get easier but instead it has worsened.
I have a child who is 6 so to an extent i have to make an effort, and i knew i had to eventually get a job as i would be stuck in this rut for a long time perhaps forever. I find it hard to meet new people and communicate, experience new situations, and now when i am out if the situation is not comtrolled i start getting panic attacks, can't think and sweating all over, when i do talk to people who i don't know all i can think of is how i look and not about what they are saying. Since i got this job i feel out of my depth and it's a mindfield, i don't really know my way around geographically and this adds to the strain. It's not just the job though i feel on edge when i am on my own to the point of hsving a nervous breakdown as i am always stressed. I'd like to see a doctor but i feel a little embarressed about the situation but i know if i carry on like this i'm going to blow and lose all my sanity.
I do have family who do support me to a certain extent but the have not got any history of this or mental illness. My boyfreind is supportive but goes out to work most of the day. When i take my child to school i spend most of my time at home alone and i have a puppy who is deaf who i am teaching hand signals to with communicating. Whenever there is an oppurtunity to go out with my child on a day trip i always panic and make an excuse not to go but i feel bad as my little boy will miss out on childhood if i carry on, i will go with my boyfreind and child but i still get an overwhelmng urge to not think about the day and enjoying- i just want to go home and be safe.
Any advice please thank u
innerpeacehappy 26-30, F 6 Responses 0 Sep 10, 2011