Life Is Weird
Ok so I'm 18 and have been out to only my bf who is a girl and she is pretty gay friendly but yet again she was shocked and couldn't believe that I was gay. I know we all got issues in life, but sometimes I seriously wonder why was I randomly chosen to live the life a gay person. I mean why didn't life choose someone who has an openminded gay friendly family ?! I ask myself everyday why god chose me to live the life of a gay person. I mean its not like I haven't tried to fix it, belive me motherfuckerss If a gay guy tells you he was born gay he is really BORN GAY !!!! why would I choose something like this especially in my own situation. I really wanted to be straight when I was younger not only because I would finally feel like I fit in , but because it would of been fun to have my first kiss with someone I really wanted to kiss not some girl just to fit in. It would of also been fun to hold hands with someone you love or kiss them in public without feeling like everyone is looking at you like you are a freak and maybe being attacked by some religious nazi . I mean its ******* hard just not being able to express your sexual side , you know I am a very simple person ; one thing that would of made me happy would be to be able to just lean towards the person next to me and say " hey the guy in the third row is really cute" while i'm in school. I strongly belive god does not hate gays something tells me he made us this way and loves us this way , because if we take a look at the planet earth , wich is his creation. We can see that it is so diverse , so many different , trees, birds , skin colors, accents , temperatures, cultures, face, heights, etc. I guess right now its our turn to fight for our right , just like women and black people had to fight in the past to be treated as equals. And why are people so afraid of something they can't understand or is just different than them, isn't diversity something beautiful ?