My Second Time

Its been a while since I have talked to Anybody about me being gay, I was still in the closest .my sophomore year of high >school was over now and it was summer, so Ive been hanging out with my friends often, and I met this guy name nanatzy, I found out that he was bi sexual, so that made me wanted to be friends with him, so we started talking and I told him about me being gay and everything, and after that we became really good friends, I guess the more I talked to him the more I started to like him, so finally I told him about how in love I was with him. He started laughing and told me he has a boyfriend, so I was disappointed to hear that but it was okay I guess. So Nanatzy told me about his boyfriend whose name was Geno, and he told me I should meet him someday since we all go to the same school, but I never planned on it. I was still crushing on nanatzy for a while, and then one day I heard nanatzy boyfriend geno broke up with him, so I felt bad for him, but he was okay and was getting things back together, but while that happened, I  was talking to Geno, well he started to talk to me, so we both started  talking and became friends, and when I talked to nanatzy  and told him about geno talking to me, he got mad and got jealous . I know I said I wasn’t gonna plan on meeting geno,  but for some reason I did, and when school started for my junior year, I been meeting up with geno all this time behind nanatzy back. I felt bad but I couldn’t help myself from geno he was so amazing to me, so we started dating now, then later on I was talking to nanatzy and he told me why geno broke up with him, he told me that he said he got tired of him and found someone better,  I felt really bad  that moment cuz that person who he was talking about was me,  I was the reason  why geno broke up with nanatzy, then nanatzy was telling me how good of a friend I was to him and how he was in love with me now, but I felt so bad cuz Im going out with his ex behind his back and I don’t love him back that way anymore, then one day when I was with geno, and nanatzy pops out of nowhere, saw us together and saw me with this heart broken face thinking how I betrayed him, but he lefted and nevered talked to me again, I felt bad about myself, but me and geno are still going out..


mayoral mayoral
18-21, M
1 Response May 5, 2012

lol ".. but me and geno are still going out". I think your problem is that you want to care about nanatzy but deep down you dont. You could happily go out with this geno boy without giving 2 shi*s about how the other guy feels. The fact that you ended your big fat sympathetic story with... i'm still going out with just shows that you aint all that bothered. Or maybe you do care but not enough, maybe you're forcing yourself to feel bad because you think thats the right emotion to feel. Apologise to the nanatazy, tell him what u did was wrong but you love geno, etc. Learn from your mistakes.

plus you're a good looking dude so, not surprised geno chased that ***. ;)