What's a Guy to Do?
Okay, Im sitting here writing this at 2:00AM. Im Pretty much loosing sleep over the fact that im Gay. Just seeing those three little letters on my computer screen is causing me discomfort. Im hoping that I can at least get some support or ideas on this site. Im still "in the closet," and as far as im conserned, it's going to stay that way. I don't want to be gay. If it comes down to it, I will be alone for the rest of my life to keep from being with a guy. Is it wrong that I think like this? My family can not find out my secret. My dad is a pastor, so you know how that would go over. I just keep thinking, "why me?" The way i feel right now, is that im going to have to tell someone about it or im going to explode. I hoping that my writing this will relieve some of the pressure. My family is beginning to wonder why im not interested in dating. And im running out of excuses to tell them. Im at my wits end.
Sorry for being so "messy" with my thoughts here. I hope there is someone out there that I can talk to about this. Thanks for reading.