Forgiving Yourself - the Hardest of All
I wake up everyday
and I forgive you -
you, who didn't love me
you, who lied daily to me
you, who told the truth that I didn't want to hear
you, who hurt me
you, who left when I really needed you
you, who let me fall
you, who broke and shattered my heart - in pieces
you, who wants to be my friend - and only a friend
you, who I love - and I thought loved me too
The one person I can never forgive
ME - the only one who is here everyday
ME - the only one I can ever truly depend on
ME - the one who consoles you at night when I cry
ME - the one who's heart is still broken in a million pieces
ME - the one that I should be the gentlest to
ME - Just me - for seeing me through, and not giving up
I can blame, judge, hurt, feel and hate you ... but that does not change anything because after everything that has been so ****** up, where I thought it was love - it was a mirage.
But I never blame you - just me.
Someday I need to forgive me - so I can forgive you too.