Confusion Or Just Plain Lost..I have been raised Catholic since I was little. My grandparents took me in as an infant and I had to live in a strict-Catholic household. I went to a public school then transferred to a private elementary and went to a private high school..I am just soo confused now about the religion..
Like ever since 8th grade, I have had weird thoughts..I was a closeted bisexual at that time and was going through a rough time..it was my most darkest period of my life (ages 12-16) I dressed alternatively and my grandma didn't like it. I used to think I was agnostic..my grandma and I would argue because I never wanted to go to church (and i still don't) unless theres a special occasion (such as Christmas or Easter..) I am now 19 almost 20, and I still have to deal with this constant battle of going to church every Sunday or "i'm committing a sin"
How in the world am I committing a sin if I don't go to church EVERY Sunday? I understand the basics of the Catholic religion, I still have my strong morals..I just don't understand..Our world today is changing and I have no idea if it's what is going on in the world that is affecting my belief in religion or what.
My mom also just passed this April, and I had a vision that she told me to go to church (although my mom wasn't a church goer either; she also had a lot of health issues) If someone could please help me to get this figured out, much would be appreciated. I have days where i feel like I SHOULD go to church then others when i WANT to go...then there are those days where i'm lazy and just dont want to go.