Repetition

i have a feeling. this is more than a state of mind. its been there for my whole life. it is a feeling of rushing, like rushing through everything. this feeling keeps me from taking a decent look on almost anything. this thing blocks/manipulates my perception aswell. i cant see things as they really exist. i see things through this red-black, rushy feeling. this must be sounding awkward to most. but this feeling sometimes leave. leave me for good. and i understand when he leaves me. because a feeling of peace takes its place. i tried to get help from some authorities. like psychiatrists, but drugs and therapy only covers the feeling. they paint it white. 
durbinefesalya durbinefesalya
22-25, M
Jul 16, 2010