Im Stupid

why do i  turn to drug and achol  when face with diffrencult suttions

its turn into a must i must drink even hough im not in a dificult suttions

nuttymonkey nuttymonkey
22-25, F
1 Response Jun 28, 2007

I do not know if you will ever see my words.<br />
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I am new to EP and always go through the random stories.<br />
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I do not have a drinking problem, but my ex-husband does. He is evolving. I love him but from a far. He is with a new love and went back into rehabilitation just last summer. I admired him for doing so. He has been drinking since he was 13, he has some honest pain, and he is courageous enough to keep trying.<br />
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If you are young, and drinking now when you are upset and not upset, you body is now addicted to the alcohol. It is a biological process. It gets so used to the alcohol that your body now craves it. It is so serious that if you do not drink you go into withdrawal and this is serious. Rehabilitation centers allow you to withdraw safely.<br />
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This is called addiction.<br />
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There is help, there is no easy fix. There is not magic pill. There are people who are experts in this.<br />
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You can start with Alcoholics Anonymous and see if you can relate to this approach. If you do not have money, there are community mental health programs. I sound like a damn social worker! Yikes. But then again, they do some good in the world.<br />
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There are ways. You are not alone.<br />
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Human beings are naturally born with compulsions. It is hard to say which card each of us will be dealt. At the age of 47, I truly believe this. I smoke. I have quit twice. I can be present and smoke, oh goody. I am still addicted, an addict, and hurting myself.<br />
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It is our humanity that make us infinite and challenges us daily.<br />
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I hope you can see that your pain is human and normal.<br />
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I hope you can find a way to know your joy and pain.<br />
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You are not stupid, you are humans, and all humans have stupid moments along with glorious ones, mundane and boring one, amazing ones, devastating moments and loving moments. Life is a series of moments.<br />
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I wish you well.<br />
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Take care,<br />
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Kim