I have had anxiety for my entire life. I didn't know what it was for a long time, I just thought I was easily startled and there were a lot of things that needed worrying about. I was fifteen when I had my first panic attack and that feeling of klaustrophobia and irrationality scared me. It was around then that I found out I suffer from GAD. I lived with it in silence for years, terrified to tell my parents, refusing to share the pain of it with anyone except my closest friends and my sister, suffering from panic attacks in private every months/week/few days. This went on for years.

In college I finally looked for help.

What I have to say to anyone who suffers from this and hasn't gotten help is this: you are not alone and you don't have to live with this alone.

My anxiety is a lot better now, I take meds to help level it out. i get depressed sometimes because of the stress of living like this and some days are almost unbearable. Today was one of the worst days I have had in a while. But doing something you love helps, being with people you love, and even finding a site like this. Talking about it with people who understand is the best therapy there is. Is there anyone out there who needs to reach out? I could use a little human kindness. I

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3 Responses Aug 26, 2009

I have suffered with panic attacks for 5 years now, they were bad enough at around 10-15 a day for months, after then they settled with medication - Only 2 weeks ago they turned into anxiety attacks, waking me in the middle of the night. I have been to see my GP this morning & he has upped my dose of medication. I am really gutted as this has changed me so much - I was always the bubbly outgoing person, always up for a laugh and would do anything. I am hoping & praying my daughter doesn't suffer with this like I am.

Thanks for sharing your story. I'm sure you've helped people just by writing it. I dealt with anxiety and depression for years on my own before I finally got help. I was honest with my kids about it which turned out to be a really good thing. When my son began having symptoms, he knew he could come to me. I wish he didn't have it but I'm glad he recognized he could get treated for it.

Thanks for the sharing. Lots of people afraid to tell that they need help. I am touched by how you want to use your experience to help others. I will keep you post if I need help. I am happy now. Do you want to be a councilor someday?