How Long Will This Take?!

I'm seriously heartbroken and I continue to pursue a friendship with him as if I'm ready. The mere mention of his new girlfriend sends me spiraling into a depressing bout of uncontrollable tears and lingering misery. It's been almost 4 months and I am still reacting. What kills me the most is that one person can have such an enormous effect on me.. especially since I am nobody to him now. How could he have moved on so quickly? I know the answer, because he really never truly cared. I can write the words, I can think the thoughts, and I can make sense of it all but I cannot bear to control my sorrow. I know I'm better but that doesn't change how I feel.
heavenlymissy heavenlymissy
22-25, F
Jan 17, 2013