Heartless And Alone
I am a 35 year old female and I have only been in one relationship my entire life. I ended that relationship in 2001-2002 due to verbal and mental abuse. Since then, I have always been single. Throughtout the time I've been single, I have met three guys but it never turned into a relationship because we were not compatiable. So therefore, I pretty much gave up meeting someone until on January 26, 2013 I joined a dating website call Plenty of Fish. As a memeber of POF I 've never received any emails, winks, flifts or response from any guys. So I believe the reason I wasn't receiveing any mail is because I look unattractive and over weight. Anyways I met a wonderful and loving man online. He's compatiable, kind and loving. I believe we got alone pretty well, at least thats what I thought. On yesterday, I had my plans to meet him, but he never answer my call nor reply to my text. I told him I had made plans to meet him today. He completley flipped out and told me I was playing games with him. And then he mentioned something about if I want to be with another guy that he would back off. I was dumb founded and clueless. I could not believe how it change between him and I. I just knew this man was for me because I have never met anyone with the same common intrests as I do. Thats why I was so drawn to him. So he did a 360 and completely dumped me via Text. I cried and feel so stupid because I could not see what was going on. I tried to plead with him but he did not want to listen. He kept rambling on about me playing games. However, after he dumped me I told him he broke my heart and he said likewise. I haven't did anything to deserve this pain. He blame and accussed me for something I have no clue what I"ve done. I figure he was never intrested. I'm confused, lonely, hurt and heartless. I hate this feeling. Now he won't answer my calls. I can not believe he's acting like this. I am a good, caring, honest, giving, unquie and loving woman anyone would love to meet with me. But I used to think this guy is my everything, now he change that to nothing. I am so sad and I know its only online but I did have feelings for him. I just hurting right now, I feel bad that he refused to tell me in person and doing it by text is much harder to deal with.