I'M Done With It All!

I have had my heart broken for the last time....I can't take this anymore. Everytime I put my heart into someone they crush it in the palm of there hands like it means nothing. Now this last guy I have been seeing for over 6 months is a habitual cheater. He never really wanted to be in a relationship with me. He only said the right things for what reasons I am still trying to figure it out. I don't know why he even bothers and why I bother either. I have caught him by looking at his phone and seeing the multiple messages of times he has went to see other women and have sex with them. One in particular I confronted him about and he said he would cut it off but yet he still goes and see's her. I am tired of this. We have so much in common. We have a great business goals and we have chemistry like crazy but he is just not a one woman type of guy and won't admit it. I am so tired of this crap! Tired of the friends with benefits! Tired of the games! Tired of the lies! tired Tired Tired! i give up on love. Today I am going to break out of this pain and close my heart up again and this time I am not opening it for NOBODY ELSE. I AM SO DAMN TIRED! I have cried till I can't cry no more. I have so much stress on me I can't breathe sometimes. I just wanted to be loved like any norman woman would but no I get a bunch of bull every singel f'n time. so tears will fall. I am not confronting him anymore. I am shutting down. He don't give a damn so why should I . That's just how life is. f'd up. damn!
SunsetDaily SunsetDaily
36-40, F
2 Responses Apr 25, 2013

How do they start ?

Is there a pattern to your relationships ?

yes, how do i change that. What am I doing wrong