I Really Need To Be Able To Talk About This Situation With My Ex, But I Can'T Tell Anyone In My Life.

The last story I posted explaining whats going on with my ex boyfriend and I is tearing me apart. I don't sleep anymore and I hardly eat. I know it not be this difficult forever, but right now my world is turned upside down. I am in desperate need of ways to help me cope and move forward with my life. As of now I am shutting down and cutting myself off from my friends and family. I have never been this depressed in my entire life. I just want to feel better again, but I don't know how to move on. I want to be able to not respond to my ex when as always he tries to find a way back into my life. I have never told him no and its finally reached that point where I can't let him hurt me anymore. I need help. I can't do this on my own. I am just lost and don't know how to cope or move forward. 3
stolenlove stolenlove
26-30, F
4 Responses Apr 29, 2013

Some people use people, its unfortunately that simple. Some of us make easy targets. You say your ex always finds a way to weasel back into your life. He's either really mixed up or, he enjoys playing you. There's a helpful book i read recently. Its a bit heavy, In Sheeps Clothing by Dr. George Simon. Gives good insight into the personality type thats just driven to play and use people. Equally important, he describes the personality type that always finds itself being used. I hope you can break this unhealthy hold your ex has on you. After that re-create yourself, exercise, find a hobby, join a club or two with people who share the same interests as you. Feel good about yourself, then find an honest guy who has good qualities. The 20's are the best years of your life, so dont waste them.

im here if you need to talk

Suggestions would be great. When I posted this last night I was really depressed. I'm slowly but surely coming to my senses about this ridiculous situation I let my ex drag me into. I have my moments when I'm so angry that I think I will be able to move on quickly and not look back. Then I have my moments when I just break down and I have to everything in my power to not message my ex begging him to come back home like he said he was planning. This has been going on for 8 years now... I'm now 22 years old and I don't want to waste another moment on him, because it just isn't going to work out. I know that he sooner or later he will do everything in his power to find a way back into my life. He always does. I want to be able to tell him no or hell just say nothing to him at all and move forward. I'm so scared that for whatever reason I will let him back in again and if that happens then I am never getting out of the hellish cycle of heartache that I am in. :/

Get rid of him. You deserve better. This is not love. This is addiction.

Are you asking for suggestions ?