Upon realizing my feelings, the more I can feel my heart aches. I just want to run away and then hopefully someone new come along the way and stop the aching. I didn't want to realize my feelings, but the realization hit me. My chest tightens the moment I think about her. I need to stop this feelings of mine so that I can stop the aching sooner. But even with my mind can't control how I feel towards others. Sometimes I hate myself for thinking about her and then feeling empty afterwards. I need something to distract me so I can stop thinking and feeling.
estles 22-25, F 2 Mar 18, 2014