"How the hell does a broken heart get back together when it falls apart?"

I really don't know. I don't know how to feel better. How long is it going to take before I don't think about him every second of every day? I'd love one glorious minute where he wasn't on my mind. Even in sleep I swear he's all I think about. He's my last thought before I fall asleep & first when I wake up. It's been two months now, and I don't feel any better. At times I think I feel worse. How is it possible that you can survive such pain? How do people do it? I am trying to move on. I'm faking enjoying myself. Doing everything I used to do. I don't get it. I was such an optimistic and happy person before this. I feel like I've lost myself completely. Losing the love of my life has made me lose myself. Before I met him I was so happy. I loved my life, and then he came into it, and I was just bursting with happiness. I had no idea I could be that happy. And then with no warning he took all of that happiness away. If I was happy before I met him, shouldn't I be able to be happy again? But I can't. I've lost the person closest to me, and I've lost myself. Because now I'm tied to him, and I don't want to be apart from him. I love him so much. I just hope he changes his mind. I selfishly pray for him to come to his senses. I pray for the life together that we should have had. I don't think I'll heal from this heartbreak in any other way, than being put back together with him.
Miranda240 Miranda240
26-30, F
4 Responses Nov 13, 2014

Hi sorry ur goin thro this what it is normal iam also goin thro it and still hurtin mothns later just try stay close to loved ones and friends

Did u try to contact him? Any way to get him back to u?

Every word you said is exactly what I feel right now. Can we really ever have the same happiness we once had after something like this? I too wonder if my happiness before him will ever return again.

People keep saying "give it time." Doesn't seem to be helping. Just seems to be getting harder to be without him and without our future.

Then we are two my dear...i feel exactly the same..

Thanks. It's nice to know someone is out there who feels the same. I just wish he did. ;)