Thank You, Everyone

I just can't do this any more.  Every day is harder than the last.  Each night, when I go to bed, I'm awake for hours, imagining how much better-off my family and friends would be if I were gone.  When I wake up,  I lament the fact that I didn't die in my sleep.  I drink myself to oblivion virtually every night, hoping that one day, I'll have the balls to end it all, or that I'll choke on vomit or something.  I hate this world, but I hate myself even more.  I've tried pills and slashing my wrists, does anyone have any more suggestions? 
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22-25, M
May 10, 2012