What Just Happened!
I am constantly surprised by the reactions of others when something good happens to me. Just today I checked my email to find out that I had won concert tickets. My daughter is with me when I open the email. She gets excited and so do I. She asks can she go with me and I say of course. It turns out my sister and I have already purchased tickets for the same concert for the very next day, they are really in the nose bleed seats however. I get excited and call my sister, instantly she is ticked off because I said I was taking my daughter to the one I had won. Maybe I shouldn't have called her at all. I consider her probably to be my best friend. I can see that she would be upset, but she should have just been happy for me.
A few months ago in graduate school another friend of mine got upset when I received a passing grade and she did not. She was so upset that I could not enjoy the accomplishment and feeling of satisfaction I should have been able to enjoy. I am not talking about glotting but just plan satisfaction with my accomplishment. I know that I would have been happy for me. I might have been upset but I would have kept it to myself.
I'm just frustrated. I'm surprised and upset about being made to feel guilty for good fortune that has happened to me. I am sure I will feel better in a little while and wish that I had never written this. I am just venting right now.