I've Done It Before, But It Never Gets Easier.

Did it before. Did it before, with many things. Joined the Army on a whim. Graduated college and up and moved to Europe. I got off the plane. I had no job, no place to live and didn’t speak the language. Made it work. But that was a long time ago. It was when I was immortal. I am giving up a great job, financial security and the optimism of youth. I am on the wrong side of 40 with no savings, no one to do this with and an affliction. But I have been here for too long. Living too long in the place that I am living…. without friends. Professionally, I am right up there, but I go home every night…. alone. No girlfriend and no friends. I stopped going out. I always go out alone. It got too painful. But where I am going, I have friends, people I know. I am once again getting off of the plane with no job, but with a place to stay and people that know me. I am giving up a great career in a field that I love to be with people. People that I love. I am still scared.
Turdle Turdle
36-40, M
Jul 24, 2010