I Am Considering A Life With Heart, With Soul , With LoveI have been trapped in a very empty marriage for a very long time. I approached the problem with the assumption that it would be fixable repairable.But, reality set in, and I realized that is not what i really want. I feel that there is a point in your life when you say that your worth more than just settling for what ever your spouse is willing to give.I also decided that if you want more out of life, then it is up to you to go get it. No one is obligated to give you anything. And so i decided to take a leap of faith.This is a huge decision for me.I have never ever had the full responsibility for myself.I simply went from the arms of my parents, to the arms of my spouse.
I also know that I have had a very sad and empty life. And If I don't do something just for me, being willing to take a risk for me, then what ever life is granted me i will spend it full of regret. My life going forward may not be easy.It may be problematic, but the life I am leaving wasn't exactly stellar.And so i am going forward with my decision. And because i consider this a leap of faith.I consider this an optimistic choice.I consider it a leap to a higher level of living.Not in the standard economic sense, but in the spiritual sense. Because this time, i am considering a life with heart, with soul, with love.
neuilly 61-65, F 5 Responses 4 Oct 12, 2011