The Battle.

Might as well get the ball rolling huh?  Well, I'm 36 years old, and I've been on antidepressants since I was 16.  I can say with all honesty that the different medications I've been on over the years have saved my sanity, and most probably my life.  I had a horrific childhood, and, no doubt that contributed to the depression, however, my 4 half siblings (who did not share any of my childhood life experiences) are also "major depressives", and are also on antidepressants.  So, it makes me wonder, how much of this devastating illness is a result of life, and how much of it is actually inherited?  My father was suicidal/homicidal, very volitile, and predictably unpredictable. He was adopted though, so I don't know if either of his biological parents had the same problem. I don't like for people to know that I'm on medication, there is still such a stigma attached to psychiatric drugs, but if it weren't for my medication, I really don't know where I would be today.  My state of mind isn't great, I'm often swamped by sadness and pain that seems to come from nowhere, for no reason, but I am able to function normally, (hahaha, well, normal for me, anyway) most of the time.
Wombles Wombles
36-40, F
4 Responses Dec 30, 2006

we're all fighting, stay strong, much love and hope :)

Thank you for sharing your story! Big kudos for you!<br />
Keep well, K.

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wow, why dont u get some counceling sessions maybe an adviced man/woman will help u get trough the childhood pain. u can even try hipnosis, ive heard that helps.