I have been battling depression for years...I'd like to say about 7 years..I'm going to be 23 at the end of March. For so long I've just suffered with it. I only tried Prozac and Zoloft for a a brief time when I was in H.S... but not very long due to the negative side effects.
I've been on Lexapro for a month...if anything it has worsened my depression and anxiety....I have more frequent suicidal thoughts,no motivation....just nothing positive has surfaced from taking this med. I've always been anti, anti-depression meds....now I know why!
My best friend committed suicide after being prescribed 4 diff. anti-depression meds...one of them being Paxil. I go back to my Doctor this week...She says, that my 10mg dose might be to low of a dose....so she wants to up the dose. Oh yea!!! I can't wait to see what effect that has. I want it to work...but I'm sorry, if I haven't felt even a slight positive change with the 10mg dose...I highly doubt a higher dosage of the same med will be much of a resolution. I have had horrible migraines on this med and bad crying fits, I'll stay in the bed for days. I just bought a new motorcycle and I've been to depressed to ride it. The same thing happened with Prozac when I was younger...that's when I vowed to never take another SSRI.
The doctor said, if 20mg Lexapro doesn't do anything.... maybe I shouldn't take any SSRI's....that they have other depression meds that aren't SSRI's, like CYMBALTA, which is a SSNRI (selective serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors.) ....whats the difference? I have no idea. I guess the side effects aren't as bad...but that's what they were saying years ago about Prozac...and all the rest of those SSRI's. I say, Once you get on these meds you are a LIFER! (on them for life) Trying one after the other in the hopes one will work...while you go through hell. I have read many success stories.....wishing they would help me, and thousands like me......but they only worsen some peoples Depression/anxiety:(
I wish I would have never started the Lexapro. Next week I'll be on 20mg....and if it keeps having the same effect...I don't think I'll make it through...it's having a complete opposite effect on me than what it is supposed to do. I'm obviously at the end of my rope...with life, or I would have never went to anti-depression meds ......i was so against them...and still am.
I know for some they have helped...but not many.....and the ones they didn't help are no longer here or they are suffering everyday. Anti-depressants are my last resort....really no where else to go....I just can't live like this anymore! I have for so long...and I'm just done. My birthday is March 31st...the greatest present I can think of is a, depression/anxiety free life! If that is not possible than Death would be the greatest birthday wish. I just don't want to deal with it anymore and I shouldn't have to. Good Luck to everyone taking anti-depression meds, I truly hope they help you get your life back!