First Steps On ZoloftI have only been dealing with Anxiety for a year. Last year, I had a severe social anxiety fear. I felt at peace when I was alone, but when I stepped outside I got very sweaty, shaky, and afraid. I had about 2 panic attacks in a week last summer and I was falling apart. I'm a very devout christian and I prayed about it alot, and my youth pastor prayed alot for me. I had really managed to get it under control, but I still hated the company of people. I can't explain the wave of fear that swept over me when I had to be near people, or when I knew I had to do something with someone in the future. I didn't know what was happening to me!!! I didn't know how to stop it! I felt like it was something beyond my control. My doctor prescribed Zoloft to me on my first check up. She told me she'd let me take it for a month and see what happens, then after 9 months she'd pull me off of it. I HATED the fact that I would become medicine dependent!!! I did not want to deal with any of it!!! I looked up the awful stories correlated with Zoloft. Some said that it didn't work, others said it made their anxiety worse. Sometimes, I even heard about thoughts of suicide. I was so scared that I didn't take it for a month. I was absolutely miserable! When I saw how uncomfortable people become when I'm around and how I couldn't do the things I loved, I just knew that something had to be done. So I started taking the Zoloft my doctor prescribed. The first day, I had awful side effects like stomach pains, nausea and insomnia. I didn't have any more sweating issues or thoughts of suicide at all!
I read my bible when I couldn't sleep at night, I sang fun songs when I had stomach pains and I ate healthy to make sure nothing else happened on the side. Its only my 5th day, but I can definitely feel it working!!!! I did things today I knew I couldn't have without it! I was more talkative, and I felt ok with not talking also (usually I get anxious about if people hate me for not speaking to them). I got random bursts of happiness during the day and I feel so much better. I know its too soon to tell, but if Zoloft keeps up like this, I'll be a new me in no time! =)
seungwon 16-17, F 2 Responses 0 Feb 2, 2012