I am 30 years old. I have only had 3 real boyfriends in my life. One lasted for 3 years, one lasted for 6 months, and one is long distance that is still ongoing. I would like to get married ot my current boyfriend, but we need to live in the same place for awhile before I can officially decide that's what I want. I have tried dating here in my city, but nothing has worked out. We are currently apart because of our jobs. Hopefully this will be remidied soon... but it's out of my hands at the moment, and I'm waiting for my employer to tell me that I can transfer to his city.
I am very scared that if I do not get married, I am going to live a life of isolation and loneliness. It has already started. All of my friends all married, and do things with other married couples. My one single friend who has never had a boyfriend in her life, actually has a boyfriend now. I spend 90% of my free time by myself.
I am an only child with a small family. I am very close to my parents, but I am afraid that when I am gone I wil have no family at all. I am not close to my extended relatives, so it would be very uncomfortable for me to continue having Thanksgiving and Christmas with them after my parents pass.
I am so afraid that I will end up alone..... with no friends or family.