Sick Of The Abuse.I am so sick of being abused by my family. It's like my feelings don't matter at all, they just kick me around and treat me however they please. They've made me so afraid to speak my mind that I just keep my mouth shut and let the abuse happen now. Now I'm so used to feeling this way, I'm numb.
I love my mother but she doesn't help matters at all. You see, I'm adopted and I've always felt that she's treated me differently than she's treated her birth children. It's like she cares more about them than me. Every time one of them says something hurtful to me (even my sister-in-law who she absolutely hates!) and I try to stand up for myself, she shuts me up so I don't upset them. Hello, I'm the one being kicked around here. I know she wants to keep us from fighting but I just want my feelings to be taken into consideration and they're not. I've tried telling her this but all she says is she doesn't need or want to hear it but if one of her REAL kids needs something, she's right there to take care of it.
I'm sick of it and there are times when I wish I could just leave and never look back. If I weren't so stuck, I would.