Not Talking Is HardHey girls,
So my boyfriend has been in boot camp for a week and a half ( i know I have a long road still ahead.) I am doing pretty good with it, but I am still having a hard time adjusting to not being able to talk to him, I have caught myself so many times picking up my cell and pressing his speed dial. Then once I get his voice mail, I hang up and Think **** what am i thinking. Well Saturday was the day that it really hit me that he isn't just on a long vacation ( cause most of last week I was in a fog and the reality had not set in yet) well Saturday I had a Rodeo, and as soon as i got my horse loaded up and I was driving out of the arena I picked up my phone and did it again, but this time it said that this number has been disconnected, and at that moment It really hit me. His dad put his phone on a military hold while he is in boot camp. So that was hard cause now i cant even hear his voice anymore. that was the only way I was getting to hear it.. =(
So the other thing is his recruiter said that I should be getting a letter this week, so every time the mail lady comes I get so excited and two days I have been disappointed, I know one is coming but I would really like to hear from him. Just so I can start sending him the novel that i have wrote him already..lol.. and to have some sort of communication with him again. To add to it, everyone in his family knows that I am gonna be getting one first so they call or email me asking if I have gotten anything yet... Just ready to hear from him...
I am starting to feel really alone and not want to really talk to any of my friends cause they all have there men here and this weekend I hung out with a few of them and they are all over each other and I just wanna slap them. I don't know if anyone else feels like that when they see couples all over each other... sorry for such a long story but helps to get it out.
Hope all you ladies are hanging in there and just think our men will be home soon enough even if it is only for a few days..
cowgirl11528 26-30, F 5 Responses 0 May 25, 2010