Boot Camp.

So maybe it's just my late-night angstiness causing this whole thing, but lately I feel like I'm not even in a relationship. I look at pictures of Daniel and me, and I have to remind myself, "I'm dating this guy. I like him quite a bit, maybe even love him." For some reason, my letters aren't getting to him. I double checked the address I've been using with his dad and his grandma, and their letters are getting through. Since Daniel's not getting my letters, all of his involve things like, "Did you forget me? I understand if you want to break up. You don't have to write if you don't have time." etc.
It's so FRUSTRATING because I want to reassure him that I AM writing to him, but to do that, I have to write him a letter that probably won't get there like all of my other letters. I feel like I'm basically just writing in a journal, throwing it in an envelope, and sticking a postage stamp on it.
I still like him. I still get overjoyed when I get a letter, even though I feel terrible that he thinks I'm not supporting him. It just feels like a one-sided crush or something. I don't really know how to explain it. It just doesn't feel like it's really happening. My friends all talk about their boyfriends, and all I can contribute to the conversation is, "Hey, my boyfriend's in boot camp. I have no idea what's going on. Awesome, right?"
Maybe it's because we didn't date for very long before he left (just a little over six weeks). I've known the boy since first grade though.
I don't know. Did anybody else feel like this when their boyfriend was in boot camp?
lauren27 lauren27
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5 Responses Aug 13, 2010

Some days definitely drag. I know that throughout this deployment some days seem to take forever but when I look back it still doesnt feel like 6 months have passed. Its this last little while thats absolutely dragging for me. Right now its going to feel slow but when you're in his arms again it will make all the waiting seem like no big deal.

My boyfriend is in Bootcamp also. We were only dating for 3 months when he left so I know what you might be going through. My boyfriend was gone for 3 months he'll be home in a week. I know sometimes it feels like the day you will see him again will never come. And he has to realized that you are waiting for him. It takes a strong Women to wait for a man. It gets easier and remember that everyday is one day closer to seeing him again :) hang in there girl.

Thanks:)<br />
After a while, I started typing up my letters and saving them on the computer. So when he comes home, I can show him and be like, "Look, I wrote you EVERY SINGLE DAY except for august third because I had food poisoning:)"<br />
I think I convinced myself that it would fly by, so when it didn't, it really got to me.

Being apart is hard and you have to decide if you're going to wait and if he's worth it. My husband is deployed currently and I love him so much but there are still times where I don't feel like I am married. I've been doing everything on my own for six months and I cant call him up when I need him. This is a tough life. But I just remind myself of how amazing things will be when he is home and that makes the waiting worth it for me.

Hey Lauren,<br />
I know exactly how your feeling. I am sorry your letters aren't going through. You said his grandma's were going through though? I don't know how close you are with his family, but what if you maybe asked her to say something in one of the letters that she writes to him, such as, Lauren wanted me to tell you she misses you and she has been writing like crazy but for some reason the letters are not making it to you? I don't maybe that will be enough for him to know that you are still here waiting. <br />
I understand what you mean, when everyone else is talking about there love interests, and you say that your bf is in boot camp but you are clueless to what he's up to. <br />
Just remember there is probably not a single day that goes by that you aren't in his thoughts. And another thing is when you do finally talk again, maybe bring up this and say, hey you know we are going to have problems like these and we have to find a way that we both can cope and get through them. Aramis and I talk as much as we can about little things we may think will come up during the time we lack communication, I mean before he leaves. Just a thought, everyone is different. But I remember I wrote him a very long letter that I gave to him to take with him to a training camp he has to go to in NJ for 2 months, and communication is horrible so I told him, the days where you aren't getting letters and your kinda feeling down, read the letter and remember I'm thinking of you:) But I totally understand, bootcamp they cant really bring things with them so maybe for future reference. It worked for us. Another thing is whatever you do, if you feel you care for him, don't give up! I totally understand the pain and frustration you feel because you want him to know you care and are waiting. Stay strong, and stay true to your man, and it will all be ok! <br />
Here is something I recently came across, It makes me feel better in situations like this. I hope maybe it gives you a little strength. Keep your chin up! You can do this, and you will get through! :)<br />
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=) BEHIND EVERY SAILOR There is a girl.She is always with him in heart & soul. She goes through everything that he goes through. She feels his pain, his sorrow, his joy, his longing and his devotio.nFor every minute they are apart, her heart aches but she smiles. She is a model to other girls. They watch her and wonder how does she do it? She is the picture of everlasting love & fidelity to her Soldier, His cause and their country. She is his rock, his support, his best friend and his lover. Her job is the hardest & most painful thing she knows. It is also by far the most rewarding.Their relationship will weather storms, cross miles and reach indscrible heights. Not because of who they are but because of the love that they share. A love that is patient, honest, true, and kind. A love that transcends the distance. A love that is deeper than any ocean. A love that is more abundant than all the stars in the sky. A love that is perfect in all its flaws Behind every Sailor there is a girl. And she will always love him.<br />
Im always here to chat <br />
Take care, Allie:)