So Lost, Need Advice.
For anyone who read my first story, you know that my boyfriend and i have been together for 2.5 years. He just left for boot camp on the first of this month to MCRD San Diego, but as most do he started acting really distant the last few weeks he was here. We went through a really rough time about 2 weeks before it was time for him to leave, where he was pushing me away, being distant, only wanting to hang out with his friends, and not being himself. I ended up leaving town for a week to visit family and to just give him time to think and space, since i thought that was clearly what he needed. While i was gone he called me saying that he thought we would be better off as friends and told me that he really loves me but as a friend and that we should just both be single. Of course my first thought was that this was another effort for him to push me away because he was scared of leaving me but when i mentioned that he insisted that he only loved me as a friend and that we just be single. When i returned to town he texted me to see how i was doing and we ended up meeting up just to talk about things. When we met to talk he explained to me that he was scared of me meeting someone when i go to college (this fall) and felt guilty for putting me through such a hard relationship, and thats why he said what he said. I forgave him and told him that if it would be easier for him to go through boot camp single so that he wouldnt be so worried then i would respect that. However, after the conversation he kissed me and just wanted to be with me and conitnued acting like we were still together, I love him so i had no objection and plus by this time we only had one more week together and i just wanted to enjoy it and not discuss whether or not we were going to be together or what his worries were or what my worries were, i just wanted to enjoy him. For the rest of the week we basically conitnued on as if we were together (doing all the things that couples do) but we both knew that we were going to be "single" when he left for basic. It wasnt until the day that he left that i found out that he didnt tell any of his friends or family that we werent together anymore, and the day he was leaving i went with him to the recruiting station where i was introduced as his girlfriend. It threw me off because we never talked about getting back together, and it was his idea to go in to boot camp single in the first place. Now that he is gone, i wish we would have talked about everything. I love him, but I'm confused. I feel like he may have only been saying he wanted to be single so that he wouldnt have to worry about me breaking up with him during boot camp, but i dont know if he was only saying that to protect himself or to test me to see if i would wait for him or move on. I would have waited for him, and now i dont even know if i should. I dont know what to write or how to write him and i cant bring any of this up because i dont want to stress him out, i just want to be supportive. Im worried that if i dont write to him as his girlfriend then he will think that i gave up on him and am already moving on, but if i do write to him as a girlfriend and thats not what he truly wants then i am just waiting for no reason and i should just deal with the hard process of moving on and being there for him as a friend. All of my family tells me i should just move on and not wait for him since he told me that he wanted to be single, but i know that he loves me and was just going through a rough time. Now, im going through a rough time and i go back and forth between trying to support him as a friend and leaving my emotions out of the way to following my heart. I dont know what to do, and no one seems to understand. Any advice would be great.